The Growth Project EP

by Moriah Haven

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    The #GrowthProject:
    Moriah Haven's upcoming concept piece truly seeks to dive into the nittiest of the grittiest of the human experience, telling the story of "Maia", a survivor with a history of abuse. In this concept piece, "Maia" makes the journey from the resulting darkness and doubt, into self-love and enlightenment, growth after tribulation, courage after fear.
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The #GrowthProject:
Moriah Haven's upcoming concept piece truly seeks to dive into the nittiest of the grittiest of the human experience, telling the story of "Maia", a survivor with a history of abuse. In this concept piece, "Maia" makes the journey from the resulting darkness and doubt, into self-love and enlightenment, growth after tribulation, courage after fear.

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released October 24, 2015

Produced & Engineered by Moriah Haven
Mixed by Eric Stewart at the Stewdio in Middletown, OH
Nereid Tree Productions, ASCAP, All Rights Reserved.
Copyright 2015, Moriah Haven Lawson

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Moriah Haven Jacksonburg, Ohio

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Moriah Haven is a multi-instrumentalist, singer-songwriter, Aspergers advocate, and visual artist with a background in American Roots music. Despite her history, she has has performed with lineups spanning from entirely traditional, to wildly experimental. With an ability to deliver a uniquely emotional vocal performance, you will always feel what Moriah is singing. ... more

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Track Name: Little Girl Heart
When Charlie Byers used to touch me
down by the creek,
he'd say,
"Now, don't you worry, honey,
it's your secret game with me"

And, I said I'd be quiet,
but, I didn't seem right,
and I didn't like it,
but, I couldn't fight
'cause he was stronger
than I was....
and, when can you feel again
after your youth's been stolen?

Now, I've endured many times with Charlie,
never telling a soul,
and, if I deny it,
over and over,
then it wasn't real
at all....

And, I've always kept quiet,
but, I've never felt right,
and my little girl heart
can no longer fight,
the hurt is stronger
than I was.....
and, when can you feel ok
after your youth's been stolen?

Copyright 2014 Moriah Haven
Nereid Tree, ASCAP
Track Name: Come Here, My Dear
When you gonna find your peace of mind, love?
When ya gonna tell me something good about it?
Well, Come here, my dear,
You can’t keep on living alone,
Can’t keep moving along in fear,
And I’ve never seen hurt so real,
As in your self-destructive heart,
Lashing out, going for a kill,
I can’t deal…..

So, come here, darlin’,
Don’t talk that way,
Come here, darlin’,
Don’t throw it away…..

Don’t hang up, I’ll be there in a few, Love,
Please, don’t hurt yourself before I get there…..
My dear, I’ve found you here,
Naked, in the floor,
Laying in a puddle of swill,
And I know you’ve had your fill,
But, you’ve got to look up and live,
Instead of laying here, trying to drink yourself to death…..

Enveloping darkness,
Why can’t I feel?
My forced smile
May seem sincere…..
But, when I pull this blade across,
Slow, and bleed it out,
You’ll know how I’m hurting deeply,
Yeah, you’ll see it…..
You’ll see it…..
You’ll see it…..
You’ll see it…..

The only thing that saved me
Was divine love,
I’ll tell you, it’s the only way
You can survive it.

The only way,
(Divine Love)
The only way,
(Divine Love)
The only way,
(Divine Love)
The only way……

Copyright Moriah Haven Lawson, 2015. Nereid Tree, ASCAP
Track Name: Skinnier, (Not) Happier
"Skinnier, (Not) Happier"
The damage is done now, Charlie,
I can't seem to learn to "love me."
The girls in movies that I wanna be
give me weight loss tips in this month's magazine.....
Girl, this will do it here, ya see,
a little, tiny bump never hurt nobody.....
the pounds will just shed away, dear,
just one bump to get us through this evening....
Just another 5 down, darlin',
just another line down, now.
It doesn't matter you stole from your own Mother,
you gotta get that fix somehow,
'cause when you're higher,
you'll get thinner:
you'll be "happy",
yes, so "happy",
when you're higher,
you'll get thinner,
you'll be "happy",
yes, "so happy"......
Just another 5 down, darlin',
just another line down, now.....
it doesn't matter they've cut your gas & water,
you gotta get that fix somehow,
'cause when you're higher,
you'll get thinner:
you'll be "happy",
yes, so "happy",
when you're higher,
you'll get thinner,
so you can be "happy",
yes, "so happy"......
No one is left to care here,
in your constructed closet of your fear,
the pain just grows every day here.....
this one could make me forget forever, dear.....
Now, you're gonna find out,
layin' in your cold cell,
sweating profusely,
they'll keep your vitals going,
hook you to some fluids,
but nobody cares that you've o.d.'ed......
You've gotta stop this mess now, darlin',
you're gonna die, or you'll get out,
the options don't really grow much broader,
you've gotta get some help right now,
And, you're higher, and you're thinner,
but, you're not happy,
you're not happy,
and you're higher, and you're thinner,
but, you're not happy, you're not happy.....
http://moriahhaven.com/track/790478/skinnier-not-happier…
Copyright 2015 Moriah Haven Lawson
Track Name: Growth After Tribulation
Well, "How could this happen?"
you'll find yourself asking.
"How could it be, someone
has so violated me?"
Well, you'll wake up in the morning,
you'll feign a smile,
you'll go to work,
and,
you'll forget it,
for a while......

It's just one of those things, darlin',
that makes you grow.
It's just one of those times
that we must understand:
There are so many things
we do not know,
but, we keep on moving:
one foot in front of the other,
and we keep on going:
knowing that we're growing
into a stronger place.

So, when I was seven,
I knew this Charlie,
he was a trusted friend
of the whole family,
and I wasn't sure how
to tell him I didn't
like that way
that he kept touching me
behind the house.....

and, it kept happening,
until I was eleven,
Charlie had appreciated
how I was growing....
and...he took us to the creek,
and, while the boys were swimming....
he knew out there, there wasn't even
a chance for screaming....

But, you'll bet,
this time, darlin',
I turned him in,
and he left behind
his presence for science,
and there is just one thing
he didn't understand,
is that I keep on moving:
one foot in front of the other,
and I keep on going:
knowing that I'm growing
into a stronger place.

Copyright Moriah Haven Lawson, 2015
Nereid Tree Productions, ASCAP
Track Name: Hold Me, Artemis.
What can you do,
when it comes to this?
You got to the bottom of this,
that seemed bottomless,
move on until the hurt fades away,
in the loving arms of sweetest Artemis.

Your quiver is empty from all the stress,
of fighting off the death
that clings from this mess,
but, now, you've found
your own power, dear,
pick up your bow,
and travel without fear,

and, when you're feeling lonesome,
darlin', when you're feeling blue,
you've gotta call on the name of love,
it's what will see you through.

So, what did you do when it came to this?
Got to the bottom of this,
which seemed bottomless,
now, you can find your way
to the stream:
where living waters flow,
to your heart,
in a love: redeemed.

Copyright Moriah Haven Lawson, 2015
Nereid Tree Productions, ASCAP